|Releasing May 3rd from Multnomah.|
haven't been writing as prolifically here at Quivering Daughters the past few months. Sometimes I click on my link and just stare, asking in silence,"Do You have anything for me, Lord?" And with my main topics, at least, there hasn't been much in the way of newness or inspiration. I remember when it wouldn't stop coming, flowing out, and I had dozens of sticky notes scattered across my desk with hasty phrases and references scrawled across so I wouldn't forget an idea or a point or something I believed God wanted me to share.
I have felt dirty and unworthy of a clean slate with God ever since my experience, ever since that meeting with Mrs. H—, this feeling has plagued me for years…. The struggle that has lingered from my TM days is guilt.
–Anna (on Recovering Alumni)
Everybody’s felt that.
You feel dirty.
You feel unclean.
You feel unworthy.
You feel guilty.
And all the religious people in the world decide they agree with you.
That’s the part that hurts the most, maybe.
At least from the god they've known. But in a wild, heady, divine redemption, this rejection of an authoritarian god often becomes a heady step of faith ~ a move towards the One True.
You are loved.
You are known.
And you aren’t left helpless. Regardless of the hurts you’ve given or sustained, the mistakes you’ve made or the wounds you bear, whether you’re allowed in or shut out, the Most High has not left you fatherless or barren. There is something you can do, no matter who you are or what responsibilities are yours. Where to begin? Paul gives us a hint in 1 Corinthians 13. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; he says, but the greatest of these is love.
Labels: journey to grace